Reminiscence – an account of remembered experiences done by talking, thinking and writing.
Last night, as I struggled to work on my journals for school but to no avail, I’ve decided to go online instead and kill time. I was doing my usual blog rounds, emails, net surf and chatting with friends. Until, I accidentally stumbled upon 2 personas who were part of my “past” --- a very dear friend and an old flame. And I would like to call it as reminisce night. I was happy to see them and catch up on some lost times and brush up on the past, in a way.
The “1st reminisce person” for the night was a very good old friend of mine. We’ve known each other for almost a decade now. We were partners in almost all the crazy days I had before. He became a household name before and was constantly there if I needed a guy’s viewpoint to all my crazy love saga. He tired to pursue me but was futile. In the end, our friendship was more important to us than any romantic connections. He was the guy version of my old self, call it mirrored personality. Back then, he would always ask me to tag along on his many girl rendezvous, demands to help him in his music career, always asks for free foods and gimiks and regularly makes our house as his official tambayan.That is why, up to now, its funny to see him still unchanging and is still an eligible bachelor. He always jokes me that since I got married I became boring and was so renewed, he felt left out but still his very happy for my present new life.
Barefoot: “daya mo, nde mo ko niyaya sa gig mo!”
Musikero: “aysus, magpapalibre klng at masydo ka na renewed for a nyt life!”
Barefoot:”yabang mo!”
Musikero: “lagot ako kay papu no o kya si papu na lng isama ko! “
Musikero: “sapok gusto mo!”
Musikero: “joke lng kaw pa, malakas ka sa kin!”
Sometimes, we may lose touch and don’t regularly see each other but we both know that the friendship lies deep within. And I know, anytime I need a help, he’ll always be there for me. (kaya pare, pautang! Kampai! Hehehe)
The “2nd reminisce person” for the night was an “old flame”. He was a past who made my life topsy turvy, literally. We didn’t exactly open the Pandora’s Box, there’s no use to it. But we kinda brushed up on old recollections. And as I go through my mind, I was a crazy biatch then. Laughter filled my mind and can just simply say, “well, shit happens to us back then.” We can no longer turn back time but what we had were lessons well learned. At the end of the conversation, I was able to say thank you (still), for if not for “our past” I wouldn’t be able to see my true happiness.
Bestfren: “anong gagawin mo pag nakita mo ang mga ex mo?”
Barefoot: “iv always wanted to personally say thank you to them.”
Bestfren: “ang weird mo! sinaktan at iniwanan ka na nga nila, tpos mag ta thank you ka pa?!”
Barefoot: “nde yun weird no! ala stir, mag thank you talaga ko. Kz if not for them,
nde ako mapapadpad sa mga yakap ni papu ko ngayon no!”
Bestfren: “aww, korak! pero ang jutangs dnt 4gt grl!”
Barefoot: “loka! Hehehe!”
With the overwhelming and overflowing happiness that I have right now, it is but right to thank those of my past, for without them, I wouldn’t really appreciate the worthiness of my life right now.
(kaya para sa inyo, tnx po and I nid those cash back, kidding!) If you are able to freely talk about the past and just laughed about it, it’s a good sign you have
finally moved on, no more bitterness and pains, only pieces of old memories. That’s why whenever I reminisce, it feels good coz I have moved on (plus omg it has been ages). It doesn’t mean that you’re rekindling old sparks but instead it lets you look back on your life and assess whether you are on the right track. It helps you stay grounded and recognize the value of living “the life”! And more importantly, it makes you feel so grateful for the valuable life experiences and lessons that you will keep for a lifetime and even share to your future generations. Reminiscing once in a while is always a good reality check.
My bestfriend asked me if I regret anything in the past and if I were to turn back time, what would I do? --- I do not regret anything that happened in the past, in fact, I’m very open with my past and I’m proud of what the past gave me. If I could turn back time (which is kinda exciting), I will still choose the life I had back then. Yep, same old ME. No edits needed, neither will I delete or add anything. No changes, as it is. I will relinquish all of it, same persons, experiences and lessons; the joys and pains, for if not for those experiences my life now wouldn’t be as worthwhile.
As I look at my snoring and lovable husband in bed while recalling my past--- that eventually led me to him, I just gave a big sigh and felt uber grateful to the God Lord… truly indeed it was all worthy!!! (winks)
PS. (pagbigyan mo na ko bby sa mga kasentihan ko, 2tal blog ko ito hehehe)
