Friday, August 08, 2008

bittersweet symphony

Barefoot: “ano hiwalay na naman kayo?!” bakit?
Havaianas: “ala lang.”
Barefoot: “aysus, stir mo ko, magbabalikan rin kyo nyan.”
Havaianas: “grl, whts wrong with me?”
Barefoot: “pok-pok ka kasi eh.”
Havaianas: “hopeless”
Barefoot: “pa therapy ka na nga, now na, tara na!”
Both: giggles


As I finished talking with one of my best friend regarding her unending cycle of saga love relationship stories, I came to reminisce the past college kikay days that we had. We were barkadas during college days. We‘ve shared almost everything and anything in our four year lives together in college but more importantly we’ve shared the sought after word called friendship (and still counting…yipee)

As I write this blog, (it’s my 2nd revision and super due late), I wanna deliver my message not by a story but by a simple unsolicited letter to a friend from a friend. Simple pero rock! Better late than never. So, here goes to you my dearest friend and to your bittersweet symphony!

It has been a decade since we 1st got to know each other. We were both strangers and I guess started on the wrong foot. But eventually, we became barkadas through the years, even bestbuds. We shared many memories together from trivial things to deep shit secrets. We’ve had our laughters and sorrows. We had our arguments and dramas, lola. Name it and we had experienced it one way or another.

We almost share the same “love story saga” only you were more kikay and landi than me. You had many boylets as you struggle to climb the love vein of mankind. We both had our fair share of love --- its crowning glory of bittersweet symphony. Many shared stories of kilig love moments, many scribbles in our lil pink notebooks, many weird but fun rendezvous with potential lovers, unrecounted meetings with strangers only to make fun or make out, several bonding double dates with our current beau, many tissue papers thrown in the bucket of tears, many grudges and baggage left out in the painful cruel rain, many Pandora’s boxes opened incautiously as we expel all our pains and sorrows from failed relationships and many lessons hopefully learned, even in the hardest ways. I can go on and on and on as I recount all the many things that seem to mirror our love story saga. Only now, I have ended my search for the so called, “the one” yet you are still in the search for yours as well I truly pray that you will end your search soon, in God’s time and plan..

We live in a cruel and challenging “love world”. As they say, it’s a jungle out there and how will you survive in your search for the ultimate happiness in your life. Lessons learned are learned in the hard way but lessons will only be fruitful in its essence if we undergo the normal phase of grieving when we’ve stumbled and fall along the rocky road of love.

My dearest friend, I want you find in the deepest of your heart the essence of your true happiness. Find in yourself the courage to move on and accept the reality that life is really cruel but you don’t have to be cruel in order to survive. I always tell you to find yourself first—love yourself, seek what really truly makes you happy deep within and have a quality alone time with yourself. It is the only way in which you can seek within yourself the true purpose of the many lessons that has been there right in front of you fro many years now.. I know it’s not easy and it’s very difficult to undergo the normal and usual DABDA grieving stage, but it’s your only way to relinquish and live out the lessons in those pains. For if not, the cycle will continue as if you’re not learning anything from it. Masochism is merely a temporary escape route for you but you will reach a time in your life when you will get tired of it and will sulk into depression. You will get tired of the burden and will seek out peace within you.

All your boylets may give you pleasure and happiness for now, but do yourself a big favor and give yourself the right happiness and peace of mind that you truly deserve. You’re a smart and beautiful woman, inside and out, it only needs a big nudge to realize that you deserve the best rather than what you have in your lap right now.

No matter what road you take, no matter what path you choose to travel, if that will make you happy, I will support you all the way. It just pains my heart to see you in such uncompromising complex situations although you almost seem to enjoy every bit of it. I will never get tired of telling you how much I will be here for you because at the end of the day, it is still your final call. I am just here if you need a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen, a punching bag to shout your grudges, call a therapy and whatever you wanna do, I will just be here. Always remember that there’s no such thing as a hopeless case, look at me, aight?! It takes a lot of courage and pride to put a stop to a pleasurable yet complex life that you are living, but trust me, in the end of a dark tunnel comes a shining light ahead. It will be worthy, if you just look towards a simpler and maybe “boring” road. You can never tell, what lies ahead of you. Always have a hopeful heart and clean aura, for the universe will attract the right colors to brighten your world.

Friends will forever be here at your beckon call. And I will be here for you no matter what it takes. If it takes a major cranial surgery to remove the helmet in your head. If it takes a major bypass surgery to reconstruct the fatty layers of your heart. If it takes a great shamalan to wave out bad spirits in your aura. If all that needs to be taken in order for you to be at the right track, I will support you all the way… I will try to convince you to come to the light, but I can just do so little.

It is still your final reach, girl! So, deal or no deal?!? I sound so Love Notes here, but hey, loka loka ka kasi at blog ko ito.. kaya pagbigyan mo na ko! hehehe

As I always say, if it makes you happy, suportahan taka (alam mo nmn ako kunsintidora). And btw, as I was cleaning out my boxes full of memories from friends, I came across one note from you dated July 1, 2001 “I hope you’ll find the right path and if you have troubles finding it, I will just be here for you.”
And now, as you face your own demons and crossroads, I say to you… may you find the right path for you and as always--- I will be here for you, girl! .

Yun lang po at mahal po kita, aking kaibigang baliw! mwah

5 comments:

(^oo^) bad girl (^oo^) said...

Feel good......

undecipherable indentity said...

nakakatouch naman letter mo...sarap mo siguro maging kaibigan...

-barefoot alchemist- said...

@too bad... spam k! toink!

@undecipherable indentity - tnx 4 dropin by a comment.. coome bak sumtym!

HappyHelen said...

sweet...

t3ss4 said...

awww... sweet.

I guess somehow that letter is for me. hahaha. I mean it's encouraging to move on... 'coz I'm still lost right now because of a relationship.

I'm sure your best friend will feel better because of this. she'll love u more to death. hehe.